I’m just not having a good day. The kids are fighting, Emily still has one of those gross drippy noses and each day that goes by makes the chances get smaller that I will get to church on Sunday. I already missed the mom’s meeting on Tuesday because Em was sick. We didn’t go last Sunday because my dad was in town (and we were in the ER with Emily.) I so badly need that encouragement right now.
Nathan is not obeying. He has talked back, he has yelled at me, he has just been so frustrating today. I send him outside to play and he stands on the back porch and yells and yells.
Emily is so whiny. Every little thing sets her off and she comes crying and screaming to me. She just dripped orange salad dressing on her cute pink Gymboree shirt and I almost burst into tears.
My camera is not working very well. We took a ton of – what should be – beautiful photos of our visit with my dad from last week and so many of them were blurry or the faces were whited out (not sure what the term is, but the color was really lightened and off.) I am just so disappointed. On top of that, it’s started eating batteries like there’s no tomorrow. I think it’s on it’s way out. We don’t have the money for another camera right now. Like so many other people out there right now, finances are tight. Sure we are making do, we’re ok, we have everything we need, but we don’t have any extra money lying around to buy a new camera.
To me pictures are priceless, the kids are growing up so fast, Emily’s birthday is coming up, I need to do something. I am just praying that it’s something simple with the camera that can be fixed and we won’t have to buy a new one. We have a Cannon Powershot A710 IS – does anyone have any tips with that?
It’s just one more thing to deal with. By itself it’s not such a big deal, but combined with everything else I am trying to process, it’s a lot. I’m tired. I’m so tired. I’m emotionally exhausted right now.
I just started bawling a few minutes ago because the kids were being impossible (I have since put them to bed, sometimes you just have to do that.) I thought about calling Nate, but I knew he was on his way to class and if he knew I was that upset he would turn around and come home. He’s so sweet like that, aren’t I blessed? But I didn’t want him to miss his class for me, so I called my mom instead. She was so great and understanding. She’s going through her own trial right now and even more so than that, she raised me and my 3 siblings. She knows what I’m going through. She encouraged me to just talk to God, to tell him exactly how I’m feeling. Like the Beth Moore book I just started reading (Breaking Free) says too – It’s ok to cry and to tell God what’s going on, to get mad at Him even, to just let it all out. Because He knows and He CAN handle it.
When I got off the phone with my mom, I sat down and poured out my heart to God. And I feel so much better now. What an amazing God we serve. How awesome is it that we have Him on our side?! Thank you, Jesus.