Just for the sake of it (I don’t know why, I just had this sudden crazy urge) – tonight, I took a pregnant test. And that is what I got.
You know I just finished posting an hour or so ago about how I gave everything to God. I told Him how badly I wanted another baby. Soon. But I wanted His Will and I trusted Him. I gave everything 100% over to Him. And now this.
I am just speechless. I am finding it hard to believe, but as I’m realizing that, it looks like He gave me what I asked for. How can I not believe? How can I not get excited? Sure I can start worrying and thinking about all sorts of things like maybe this is residual stuff from my miscarriage, but you know what? I think I’m going to let myself get excited. To rejoice in His gift.
(Btw, I did get a NEGATIVE blood test 3 weeks ago. This is NOT residual hcg from before. This is new. And BIG!)
God is Big. He is so awesome. Thank you, Jesus. WOW.