I feel like I’m going to lose my mind. I just want to go back to bed and rewind the time so we can start the day over. Or just plain go back to bed.
I am so darn tired today. I slept great last night, but I’m so exhausted. I think I’ll need a couple nights of good sleep to catch up on what I’ve lost. But I’m so tired, I’m cranky & I have no patience. And the kids are driving me crazy! Nathan isn’t listening, he argues when I tell him to do something, and then plays around. And Emily has done nothing but whine from the very start of the day. She woke me up whining from her room. No particular apparent reason, just a whiny day.
I feel bad, I’ve yelled at the kids and I really do have no patience. I tried to sit down to quietly read my Bible and pray and it was nearly impossible because Emily was climbing all over me and elbowing me in the stomach, which does not feel good, and then she threw a big whiny tantrum when I told her to stop. I got mad then and told her to sit in her chair and of course instantly felt bad for my tone “Em, let Mommy read her Bible in PEACE! Come on!” (yeah, that’s a godly mother for you!) Or when I yelled at Nathan because he was not picking up the children’s Bible we are currently reading from and was grabbing every other book BUT that one. Again, so godly of me. *sigh*
I spent 15 minutes getting the kids ready to go out to play in the snow (it’s snowing again today) after we struggled through school. Emily was outside for all of 5 minutes when she came to the door crying. Apparently a snow mobile driving by “scared her” and she insisted on coming in. Seriously, why do I even bother sometimes? And I’ve already told the kids at least 20 times today what that loud noise is (snow plows.) And why do their pb&j sandwiches have to be 4 triangles? Not squares, not even 2 triangles, but 4 triangles?!
I still feel like I just rolled out of bed and it’s noon. I need to go make lunch. If I can do that without pulling my hair out that is. *sigh*
Hopefully the afternoon will be better.