I had a wonderful day today. God is so good.
I was in bed by 10:30 last night, despite the fact that they moved the Bachelor back an hour (ending at 11 pm) and I was dying to know the results of the Rose Ceremony. But I went to bed! (And then I checked my tivo first thing this morning! 😉 )
I was awoken at 3 am this morning to the sound of some kind of whining/shrieking. It was rather loud and I quickly sat up in bed, trying to discern whether it was Nathan or Emily – and wondering what was wrong. After a few seconds, I realized it was neither of my kids. It was some cats right outside our house fighting very loudly. They shrieked and snarled and screamed at each other for a good 5 minutes and then were finally silent. It was weird and quite disconcerting to wake up to! Later on – after I was up for the day – I had almost forgotten about it, but then I noticed tufts of white fur all over the ground next to my car and in front of my steps. At least I’m totally crazy and beginning to imagine/dream of fighting cats in the middle of the night!
I took the kids to church this morning for my Mom-to-Mom meeting. It was very encouraging – as always – and I was so glad we went. A couple of the moms weren’t there – they had sick kids, but there was still a nice bunch. It is just so nice to talk to other moms! I always feel like I’m not quite as insane as I sometime feel I am. lol. And it was so nice to hear another mom saying how she usually just stays home during the week with her kids and doesn’t go out much, but just having her car in the driveway – available if she does want to go out – makes her feel better! That is exactly how I am and once again, it was one of those things where I felt slightly crazy about and now feel a little less crazy.
One of the points of the “lesson” today was to not compare ourselves to others and to hold ourselves to impossible standards. It was a great reminder because I am always comparing myself to others. I love how the author worded it: “Our images of ourselves can become badly distorted as we compare our “inside” with everyone else’s “outside.” Isn’t that the truth?! I am always doing that!
In addition to having a nice morning, I was able to catch my mom on the phone and we chatted for over an hour this afternoon. I always feel so encouraged after talking with her. My mother is not only my mom, but she has become a wonderful friend and a mentor to me too. I am so thankful for her. We discussed some homeschool curriculum for next fall and as always, it was wonderful to have her 20 years of homeschooling experience to turn to!
Today was one of those days where I felt like I might actually be a decent mom. I was kind and patient with the kids. I did chores, I did school with Nathan. I calmly and appropriately dealt with disobedience without losing my patience and getting extremely frustrated. I didn’t spend a lot of time on the computer. I made cupcakes (from scratch!) with the kids and then made dinner (sloppy joes.) After dinner, we cleaned up the kitchen together and then we read a bunch of books together.
We even read “Goodnight, Moon” for the benefit of little Joshua. Nathan is just now starting to realize that he can talk to his little brother, so it was adorable watching him talk to my tummy. “Hi Joshua, I’m your big brother, Nathan!” And then Nathan turned to me and said “Mom, he’s not saying anything back!” I laughed and explained that we couldn’t hear Joshua talk or cry yet but when he is born, Joshua will know our voices because we’ve been talking to him. Nathan was satisfied with that. For now, that is. I’m sure he’ll come to be again with more questions. He’s quite a thoughtful boy – he will ask a question, think about it for a while, and come back later with more indepth questions. I used to think he wasn’t listening to my answer because he wouldn’t say much afterwards. But now, I know that he is just thinking very carefully.
It was a very nice day and even though it’s the evening and I’m usually quite exhausted by now, I still feel pretty refreshed and encouraged. Thank You, Jesus!