So today is my 4th day of “partial bedrest.” I say 4th because I didn’t really start until Sunday.
I’ll admit it- I had a minor meltdown this morning over the state of my house & the unruliness of the kids. Nate was home from work getting our vehicle inspected & had to field my breakdown. Poor guy – sorry, hon!
It started off with Nathan wetting his bed yet again. I posted awhile back how we were having issues. Then a friend lent us one of those potty “alarms” and that helped tremendously. Nathan quit wetting his bed and I thought we were pretty much home free. But a few weeks ago, he started wetting the bed again, just one night here or there. Then the last couple of weeks, it’s turned into almost every night and this morning, I about lost it. We had finally just caught up (mostly) on laundry and now I have more laundry to do. Because I can’t stand to have pee-smelling clothes/bedsheets lying around. But I just don’t have the energy to deal with one more thing right now. I know it’s life and part of being a mom, but I’m tired, already feeling incredibly frustrated with the state of my house and my inability to wisely do much about it, and I lost my temper this morning & yelled at my family. And after finding out about the wet bed and pee soaked clothes that Nathan had flung in the corner of his room again, I then discovered that he had spilled catfood all over and left it, and then hadn’t picked up his room again. It was ridiculous on my part but I lost it. In the midst of my frustration, I got stubborn and insisted on sweeping the floors & picking up a few things. I didn’t do a ton, but I knew I had overdone it a bit when I finished and then I felt doubly guilty – for losing my temper & for not being a better mom to Luke & resting.
This is so hard. And I’m not even on full bedrest. I don’t know how moms manage that! I’m so thankful that it’s not mandatory right now.
This laptop is definitely a lifesaver. I can put my feet up on our comfy couch, watch the kids play, feel much more a part of what they are doing – not to mention I’m resting much better than sitting at the desktop.
I talked to the high risk nurse again yesterday & she once again agreed that I’m doing the best thing right now. My next ultrasound is next Wednesday and before that I have an appointment with my OB.
Sorry, I know this is kind of ‘rambly’ but I’m just in that kind of a mood.
Before I finish, don’t forget to check out the video I uploaded of Joshua walking!