I am hanging in here. I am starting to get bored & I am struggling with feeling lazy, yet knowing I am doing what I need to do. But most importantly, Luke is doing well. He is very active lately & loves to poke his little feet up into my ribs. Before long, I know those rib-poking-sessions will be more painful than fun, so I’m enjoying it while I can.
We have a pretty good support network, for which I am incredibly grateful. Some of the ladies from church are arranging meals for us and I can’t thank them enough. It just means so much to have them take the time to think of us & help us out, not to mention just feeling loved & not alone.
Our neighbors are also helping out – they’ve offered to take the kids if anything should “happen” which is a huge relief to us. We have many friends we know we could count on, but it’s much easier to knock on someone’s door across the street versus traveling an extra 30+ minutes out of the way. Their oldest daughter is likely going to watch the kids while I go to my now frequent doctor appointments/ultrasound checks (where the kids are not allowed to go per the high risk doctor’s rules) so this is a huge burden lifted as well. Especially as Nate will be away on a business trip again next week & I won’t be able to turn to him in a pinch to watch the kids. (As for his travels, we’ve both agreed that it’s ok for now. If things should get worse, he’ll stop right away and stay closer to home.)
Right now, I am struggling most with relinquishing my jobs. Or most specifically, relinquishing control of my work. I didn’t realize how important it is to me to keep up on the laundry, sweep that floor, clean up the kitchen, change the sheets on the beds, until now, when I’m not supposed to. That’s my job and giving it up just feels wrong. I know it’s not wrong, but it’s a constant mental struggle for me. The neighbor girls (aged 12 and 16) have offered to help with chores around the house, but I’m not even sure where to start with that one. Do I just say Ok, can you sweep my floor & I’ll pay you XX of dollars? They’re so sweet I know they wouldn’t expect any money, but I wouldn’t ever take advantage of them and would of course pay them. They said they’d be glad to help with laundry too. Does anyone have any tips for me? We’ve been ok this week, but Nate is going away next week & I know I’ll find myself a) doing too much, b) going crazy with my house falling apart, which happens remarkably fast with 3 young children, or c) needing to ask for help. The most sensible option is C), but again I’m not sure how to go about it. They’ve already offered, I guess I just need to ask…?
One of the hardest things I’m having to give up is my time in the kitchen. I love to cook & bake and not being able to make all those fall goodies whenever I want or cut up the meats & veggies for a delicious beef stew is putting me in a terrible mood. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it’s just driving me nuts. I keep stumbling across these delicious recipes for tasty tidbits like pumpkin muffins, apple butter, homemade cinnamon rolls (which would be just perfect on a rainy day like today) and I am simply itching to make them, but I can’t.
I also find my patience with the kids waning and that bothers me tremendously too.
The other thing that is really frustrating me lately (while I’m on the subject of such annoyances) is our health insurance. We’ve been blessed with pretty good insurance and all we were going to have to pay for this baby’s birth was $250. Trust me, I know how good that is!
We just found out a couple weeks ago that Nate’s work is switching to a new insurance company. We have to switch to this new insurance. They gave us no options such as raising the premiums (we would have gladly paid a higher premium each week compared to switching to this new co. as I know many other families would!) to keep our current coverage or even a ‘transition’ period. It’s this new company or nothing. The new company is rated 2 stars for customer service (as low as it gets) where our old one was 5 stars. And now we have deductibles, co-insurance, max out of pocket costs, and all of those fun things.
This kicks in the first of January, which is of course the month I am due.
Now we are suddenly looking at paying a few thousand dollars out of pocket for Luke’s birth, compared to the previous $250. That’s quite an increase with not a lot of time to prepare. If we had known about this when I first got pregnant, we would have started budgeting appropriately & saving from the beginning. Now we have just a couple months left before these enormous bills will start rolling in.
We’ll manage – thanks to us following the Dave Ramsey program, we are doing much better financially, but it’s still frustrating none the less.
Thanks for listening to me vent about all of that – I feel better having gotten it all “out.”
I am currently sitting on the couch with my feet up. Nate has blocked the two entryways into the living room so I could rest without constant interruptions from the kids. Joshua is standing at the one gate and “talking” to me – it’s so cute. I just ordered him some new “slippers” from BePe baby and they are so cute & fit him so well! I’ll share more about them later when I can get some pictures up! Oh and speaking of Nate – yes he’s home today, which is SO nice! I haven’t seen him on one of his “off” Fridays in like a month because of his travels!
It’s a cold, rainy day here in New Hampshire today. It’s about 48 degrees – even now at 2 pm – and windy too. The weather says this a “Nor’easter’ – good thing it’s not about 15 degrees colder or we’d be getting a ton of snow! I do love fall & am really enjoying the cooler weather. With my little “internal heater” aka Luke that Nate always teases me about, I was quite happy for the cooler weather to replace the 80’s and 90’s of summer!
I am currently waiting for a cup of tea for now the 3rd time. Nate is so sweet but he’s so funny about bringing me things. He’ll say “what can I get for you?” and I’ll ask for a mug of apple cinnamon tea – yum! It’s now been about 45 minutes and he’s remembered and forgotten twice now and I still do not have my tea. And I don’t want to bug him because he’s trying to wash dishes while manage the kids for me (with a little of his laptop thrown in there – hey, I can’t expect too much, right?) So I just sit here and laugh.
I am blessed and I do know it.
What are you all doing on this Friday afternoon? Any weekend plans?