I’m 33 weeks now – Praise God! It’s been about 10 weeks since we heard the news that I was at high risk for my water breaking early & Luke is still baking away! The Lord is so good. I have to say I have been amazed at how many people, including complete strangers, have said they are praying for us – it means so much to me & I know it has made a difference. Thank you!
Now I’m going to be flat out honest here – I am exhausted & pretty much constantly in pain between the PBS pain & lots of contractions. I have to take my Procardia meds on a regular basis or I have a lot of contractions. The meds are not without side effects either – I get light headed and dizzy. If I take the maximum dosage and stay off my feet, I can keep the painful contractions mostly away. But if I get up and start doing anything – even while on the meds – I start contracting a lot. It’s frustrating because I feel forced to stay off my feet. Before, I was voluntarily staying off my feet for the sake of the baby. Now I don’t really have to be on bedrest, but I feel forced to, if that makes any sense. I’ve had some near meltdowns lately just because I am wanting to clean & organize my house so badly, (I always go into crazy nesting mode around 30 weeks) but my body simply will not allow me to. Plus it’s harder with the holiday season; I always love to do so much for Christmas – I bake tons and tons of Christmas cookies, we decorate the house, I do Christmas cards, have the kids do Christmas art projects, etc. And I can’t do any of that this year.
I’ll stop for a second to send an announcement to all of our family & friends to whom we normally send Christmas cards – we’re not sending them this year. Sorry, I simply can’t. We haven’t taken our annual Christmas photos with the kids either – again I simply can’t. So instead, I’m going to attempt some family photos in January/February after Luke arrives and send those out.
Back to my regular post – It’s been hard for me mentally. And I have really struggled with seeing Nate do all my normal things – help care for the kids, do my dishes, make dinner, “clean” (I say “clean” because he does try but it’s certainly not what I do. But I’m not complaining because I’m truly grateful for everything he has done. I just feel guilty because I feel lazy. I know I’m not, but it’s hard not to feel that way, you know?
And on top of that, I’ve been stuck at home. If I’m on my feet for any period of time, the contractions pick up to where I have to get off my feet or risk a trip to L&D. So that means I haven’t been able to go shopping or even go to church for the past couple of weeks. I keep hoping that maybe things will slow down & I can go to church but so far, it hasn’t happened. However, I remember with Emily, I had a lot of bad contractions up until about 35 weeks and then they slowed down to where I could do more and go off the Procardia and I’m kind of hoping that happens this time too.
This weekend, my dear sweet husband helped the kids decorate our Christmas tree and we semi-decorated the house. While it’s not my usual effort, it’s something and I feel much better just with this little bit of holiday spirit in our house.
All that being said, we have less than 6 weeks to go and even though in some ways, it seems so far away, I know with Christmas and everything going on, the time will fly by and before we know it, my precious baby will be in my arms.
There is still a chance that he might come early, but I have had a feeling the last couple weeks that he is just going to stay right where he is until my scheduled c-section date at 39 weeks 1 day on January 24th. Which just so happens to be my brother-in-law’s sweet wife’s birthday. She is also expecting a baby soon – she is 4 weeks ahead of me, so our new little nephew could arrive any time! This is Jennifer & Jesse’s first baby and we are so excited for them!
Tomorrow is my next doctor appointment & ultrasound. At my last ultrasound exactly 4 weeks ago, Luke was 3 pounds 5 ounces. My guess is he’s about 5 1/2 pounds now. We’ll find out tomorrow! For comparison, I had a growth ultrasound at exactly 33 weeks 1 day with Emily and Joshua and both of them weighed exactly 6 pounds 2 ounces. Crazy, huh?! Now Emily was 9 lb 13 oz when she was born at 38w6d and Joshua was 10 lb 7.5 oz at 39w2d. I will be 33 weeks 3 days for this ultrasound with Luke, so we’ll see how he compares. Of course, I know ultrasound measurements are only estimates, especially at this point on where they are just getting so big in there it’s hard to get accurate measurements, but it’s still fun to see.
I’ll update you all later on how it goes.
Thanks again for thinking of us and keeping us in your prayers!