Thank you all for the encouraging words & the prayers – it really means a lot!
Things are pretty much the same, which is good. I felt like I was going to go pretty crazy last Saturday, but Sunday was a little better. I went “out” with the family & by “out” I mean going into Walgreens for a very quick 5 minute trip and then sitting in the car while Nate did my Shaw’s shopping ($360 of groceries for $15 and we have $37 in catalinas, so basically a profit on a TON of good food!) I was a bit ansy to not be able to do my coupon shopping myself, but I am very thankful my sweet husband was willing to go in for me. I stayed home from church because Nate was heading out of town on business again (he left yesterday) and I knew I needed to save my strength. It’s a good thing I did because yesterday was pretty exhausting.
This happy, messy little boy (eating Chili without a bib- thanks hon!)….
He’s also started throwing fits if he gets “offended.” If I tell him “No” in a stern voice, to his banging on my laptop for the umpteenth time, he’ll put his little lower lip out and burst into tears. And then, depending on his mood (I think his teething yesterday exacerbated it), he will turn it into a major fit where he holds his breath, falls over, and then really screams. Here’s him at the end of one of his tantrums:
We’ve also been dealing with some behavioral issues with our oldest. It’s nothing horrible, just some things that keep cropping up. Nathan is a pretty simple child in that if something is bothering him, he acts out – he doesn’t get all emotional or whiny, but he does show it. In some ways it would be easier if he would just come out and tell me like Emily does “I miss Daddy!” but he shows it in other ways. And sometimes it takes us some time to put the pieces together. Nathan always seems to go through phases – he’ll act out & drive us crazy to the point where I wonder if anything I ever say or do gets through to him and then suddenly he’ll turn a “corner” and behave so nicely, I have hope again.
With everything else going on, it’s so easy to just be like “Can’t you just behave?!” but that doesn’t cut it and is not the answer. This is another reminder to me of the up’s and down’s and many challenges of parenting. And how much we need to continually seek the Lord’s wisdom and guidance. This morning, I was feeling really discouraged and I prayed about it. The Lord laid it on my heart to call my dad, who is quite wise and also someone who really loves, knows, and relates to Nathan. Dad has, many times, helped me out with Nathan, and once again, he offered some excellent insight, wisdom, and advice. I am so thankful for him.I think we have started to figure out what is going on with our 7 year old (I think Nathan is really just missing Daddy right now) and hopefully, with a little tweaking to our routine here and there, we will start seeing some positive results soon.
All that aside, tomorrow is my next doctor appointment and repeat ultrasound. My OB appointment is at 12:30, my scan is at 1:00, and my peri appointment is at 1:30. I’m hoping the neighbor girl will watch the kids for me, as I’m not allowed to bring them to my ultrasound/peri appointment. I was under the impression she was definitely going to do it, when she came by yesterday and said she would know tomorrow (today) if she could or not for sure. Um, that’s a little short notice, people! I have NO ONE else lined up to watch the kids and am slightly stressed about this. But I refuse to majorly worry about this as hopefully, she will be able to watch them – but it’s just one more thing I don’t need right now, you know?! Lord, this is in your hands!